It doesn't help things when we see all the celebrities with their already gorgeous bodies, pregnant looking just as gorgeous. Sure, they can fall under the scrutiny of the public eye and are often chastised for weight gain but they still carry those babies looking like champs! To compare oneself to celebrities is almost always a mistake for the self esteem but sometimes it just cannot be helped.
These days though? I am comparing myself not just to pregnant celebs but other pregnant woman I know, see or meet. Just the other night at prenatal yoga, I caught myself checking out all the other expecting Moms. Our instructor told us not to compete with one another. I think she meant not to compete with eachother yoga moves wise but in my head I was saying to myself "don't look at their cute baby bumps"... In the full length mirrors of a yoga studio, it's hard to continue to look at oneself in a positive light. I am my own worst enemy... that is what I am thinking as I actually type this post.
So here is where I tell you that I know I am being somewhat unrealistic with myself. I already struggled with my weight pre-baby so it is no wonder that I am feeling a little low about my looks now that I am gaining baby weight. My doctor has told me that I haven't gained too much and actually, I have gained the exact amount that I should have by this stage in the game (28 weeks)... but when I stepped on the scale at my last doctor's appt, I nearly cried because I have never weighed this much in my life (cue brain to malfunction due to a number on the scale). It is a daily struggle that I am only starting to get used to... but I think it should be talked about more. Before I was pregnant, I don't ever remember hearing women talk about body image struggles while with child but then maybe I wasn't paying attention or maybe it's just something I thought I wouldn't have an issue with. After all, pregnancy is such a happy time!
I actually googled "how to deal with negative body image while pregnant" and my husband was like "bitch, you be crazy" without actually saying it. To him, he claims I am beautiful and tells me every morning but it is really hard to believe when you feel so funky about yourself. The other day, while in Starbucks, a complete stranger walked up to me, while I was eating a biscotti, and said "Ma'am, you look great". If he was hitting on me, then it was pretty blunt... me thinks he was just commenting on how I am looking pregnant. What am I trying to say? Well, maybe I need to just chill out on myself, letting this third trimester work it's magic and then work on improving the post baby bod. Lord knows the hormones are surging right now, which likely aren't helping things... and also? At the end of this journey, I get a bouncing baby boy who will love me no matter what I look like. That seems like a pretty good deal.
What are your thoughts on body image during pregnancy?